Advent of Field Camp

Field Camp looms ahead this coming week.

I'm scared.. I'm really scared..

Its going to be really, really REALLY tough....

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I'm scared...




*cries*

Back. Booked in for 1 day and book out again on the next day.

hell yeah.

weird.

i feel like eating.

I'm not going to blog... now.

umm.. yah. I'll tell you about the Advent of the Bobo Shooters and my mental conception of what the field camp would be like maybe... afterwards.

umm.. ok.. bye.

Attend-C...

Was feeling super sick yesterday and got deported off the island with a raging fever of 38.5...

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Fever dropped to 37.9 now, but still feeling mighty woozy...

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But I know that my body got it's much needed rest now....
11 hours of sleep.. now that's a luxury that 99% of army personnels never get to enjoy..

and... this also means that my weekend is doomed for RT...
zzz...

Re-gime-n-ta-tion.

Define -
Regimentation : subject to rigid discipline, order, and systematization

....

apparently, life in the army is all about that.

Rigid discipline can equate to imposing disciplinary actions on the most minor things by categorizing it with the most major stuff.

i.e. "Late for 14 seconds = Blatant disobedient of orders given by commander, hence, insubordination"
thus, we're to be "grateful" that we're only given a few hundred push ups.

Order can equate to doing all sorts of completely unnecessary stuffs in order to impose "order" onto the school

i.e. "Traveling to all places within BMTC within MUST be always marching, with rigid 45 degree pacing, 90 degrees hands swinging and a head throbbing dull thud of boots at all times; even though the chin up bar is like 10 meters away."

Systemization can equate to an "naturally unnatural" form of "non-punishment, punishment" that is totally "unreasonably reasonable".

i.e. "You have to do guard duty this weekend and burn your book out *(even though every other person gets to do it on a weekday), don't argue - suck thumb - this is called regimentation."

To me, regimentation is an overlapping of order, that has stacked up so profusely over the years that rather then becoming an "efficient" solution, it has became a barrier to effectiveness.


Well, the army loves it. So... in the words of Sargent Alex, "-suck thumb-".


The company commanders have issued a directive that anybody who fails IPPT, or misses 3 lessons in a row, will have to burn their weekend book outs for Remedial Training.

ZZZ.

yes. ZZZ.

Firstly, over 90% of the entire company failed IPPT. Seriously, confinement will seriously dampen the morale of the company. Causing them to be unable to have civilian rest will only cause their strength to be sapped.

Secondly, those who miss 3 lessons in a row? Sounds so much like its directed at those who went to the Medical Officer (MO) and got an "activity excused" pass from them due to injury, sickness or severe muscle soreness.
What will happen now?
- nobody will go to the M.O. for fear of having to be confined on the weekend for additional training
- people will start falling severely ill or be severely injured and thus being Out of Training/Course.
- the company size will seriously start to dwindle - again.


Tada. Life in BMT rocks.


Actually... I wonder what would happen to me if my friends found out that I have a boyfriend.

hmmmm...

ok. I don't really want that to happen as of yet.





Its all I can do, to soothe your heart.
A heart of pain and loneliness.
Hold it close and never let it go.

I give you... me.

=)


***
Tank - Qing Tian Yu, (Summer's Rain)

You said that you are the rain
Whereas I am the sun that shines blindingly

And I'm not supposed to be in
Your grey, dull world

When I tried to dry your tears
You simply rejected me

My warmth in my hands
I wanted so much to share some with you

I wished it would rain suddenly
And let me understand how you feel in the cold night

Whoever said that the sun and rain cannot be together?
I only ever want to be with you

Today, and tomorrow. I never want to be apart
I'll wait for my rain to appear on my sunny day


You said you're not afraid of the dark
And it doesn't matter if you're alone

Carrying your sadness with an umbrella alone
You couldn't care about love anymore

I want carry you on my wings
To fly to the other side of the rainbow

Where only happiness exists
Till forever...


Then I wished it would rain suddenly
And let me understand how you feel in the cold night

Whoever said that the sun and rain can only oppose each other?
I only ever want to be with you

Today, and tomorrow. I never want to be apart
I'll wait for my rain to appear on my sunny day

And when it rains when the sun shines, its so beautiful
When our skies will never be alone again

Let me wish for the sun for you,
the rain which falls on the sunny days

When our skies will never be alone again...

National Endurance

National service... I think I'm like getting used to the hell that I'm being put thru...

Everybody is like falling sick, getting out-of-training statuses and reducing the entire platoon to like half its original strength..

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Yah, life in NS is really tough...

But I'm definitely reaping reaping rewards from it already...

I can run like 9 rounds around the stadium, which is approximately 6+ km, I can do up to 18 chin ups now...
Its quite dreamy... but the tough training has proven its worth.

The only obstacle now is the route marches... Its quite sucky.. =/

We don't really march for really long, but its ultra nerve exhausting...

For once, I realize what is the true meaning of "taking your mind off the training"... Because for route marches, the moment you think about the march, you die..

But I'm seriously proud of my platoon.... We've always proven time and again that our platoon is the best...

sigh..

think positive.

I think.. I can see my 6 pack.

haha. maybe i'm hallucinating...

But I definately have a much, much, MUCH more defined body then 1 month ago now....

Not bulky, just nice..

=)

yaay.

NS is good.

erm.. yah...

National Hell.

Life in army sucks.
I never could have dreamt that it would suck so badly.

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I guess I was caught unprepared...
I wouldn't be fazed if it was an unending cycle of physical training, nor would I be fazed if I had to go and crawl in the mud.

but. what I can't stand is the sheer sterilized regimentation.

You cannot walk from one road to another - you must march.
You cannot question the background of orders - you must do.
You cannot smile when you're marching or doing drills.
You cannot have a speck of dust on your bunk's ceiling fans.
You cannot have a single tiny trail of watermark on your bunk's windows.
You cannot have water in the toilet.
You cannot.
You cannot.
You cannot.

The army is so regimented that I feel that synchronization has replaced effectiveness and efficiency.

And I really, really, REALLY hate guard duty.

I HATE GUARD DUTY.

I think its like one of the worst possible things that can happen in NS.

No wonder its a form of punishment.

zzz.

Worst of all, i have about 20 hours left before I have to book in again.


ARRGH...





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I'm so sorry I couldn't stay over with you today love..
I'll make it up to you one day,
Just remember,
Like the sun that rises every morning,
The darkness will have to end soon...

Wait for me, my love... its all I ask...